the architecture of separation
i want to keep empty the drawers he was using. i want to conserve his detergent. i want no-one to use his key ever again.
this is a relationship in palimpsest.
the song ‘model’ by kraftwerk is spinning round and round in my head at the moment. every time there’s no music playing in my immediate surroundings, those juttery, silky noises descend on my brain and start bouncing out their tune. in the shower when i couldn’t stop humming the mid-8 i suddenly wondered how many other songs have at one time or another occupied the same few square milimeters of brain flesh, or few billion neurons in my cortices. why do i always need one particular song to be in there, just waiting for the right moment of peace to leap out and prevent me from ever switching off? maybe i have an overactive brain that always needs to be repeating something so that it can learn it. i have a terrible fear of memory loss, because people always tell me that i don’t remember anything, and it seems like they’re right. maybe though, the reason that i don’t remember stuff is because my brain is always super busy repeating krautrock tunes or old conversations or possible future converstions or lectures, and it doesn’t have time to let what’s happening in my real, present life find a foothold in my memory.
i really need to see a fucking psychiatrist.
i just came across this:
wow, that's really interesting brad. you know, i've actually heard of another way you can deal with your 'smegma problem' that doesn't involve expensive surgery, weeks of recovery, and the loss of 80% of the nerves endings on your penis. i think it's called WASHING YOUR DICK.I was loosely circumcised at birth: I have a long inner foreskin remaining (about 2 inches), which spends most of the day folded up behind the glans. If I am sitting it usually covers the corona. The inner foreskin secretes smegma, and, especially in the hot weather, there is a noticeable odour, as well as moistness. Although I do not produce anywhere near the amount of smegma that I imagine an uncut man would, still I produce an amount which, during the summer at least, is inconvenient and unwanted. I think that the problem would have been obviated had I received a slightly tighter job: if the doctor had removed either more of the inner foreskin (possibly another inch or so) or if he had removed more of the shaft skin, resulting in a high-and-tight.
I had a room-mate some years back who had a low-and-tight cut, with very little inner skin, and a very smooth shaft. He never produced any smegma whatsoever.
The moral is, I guess, circumcision cures smegma-problems, but some styles (high and/or tight) cure it better than others.
Brad (from circlist.com)
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