adlai, adlai.

it upsets me to think that it can be so hot and sunny outside, and i can be so keen to go lie in the garden and enjoy the summer, yet i still choose to stay indoors and listen to the avalanche and start an internet blog.

but i really do want to go outside. if i'm this bad at doing what i want when it's just sun, how am i ever going to sort out a career or anything like that. thank god i've still got a few years of freedom left.